random question addressed to myself

what. in the heck. am i. doing?

1 year, 5 months past a bachelor of science. major: marine biology, minor: chemistry.
i can barely add or subtract in my head anymore. i'd have a difficult time telling you why el nino happens, the scientific name of giant kelp, or the difference between yellowtail jacks and yellowfin tuna. things are slowly becoming lost to me, knowledge that i don't want to lose. i need to do something about that. especially when i start to think "wow, i miss chemistry" while stirring my morning coffee. yep, it's definitely time to do something about it.

so, what am i doing? what do i want to do? what am i going to do about it?